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The Night Terrors IV

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With rumblings and rustlings and the shutting of many books, everyone sat down again; but I remained standing before the table and heard the judge’s voice spill down over me from above:

“Let the counsel for the defense come forward,” he said.

A few members of my family timidly approached the chancel. They had no formal representation. Instead, one by one they mounted the pulpit, which had been made to serve as the witness stand, and spoke a few words on my behalf.

One of them had brought along a wheelbarrow load of boxes – boxes full of my notebooks, papers, and manuscripts of every kind. Depositing these before the bench as evidence, he said, “Your Honor, this man is a scholar and teacher. He has led many Bible studies.”

A white-wigged, black-jacketed clerk at a desk to one side of the table took note of this, looking unimpressed.

Another of my defenders took a sheaf of papers from one of these boxes and laid it directly on the clerk’s desk.

“He also aspires to write,” he said.

The clerk raised his black, bushy eyebrows and frowned.   Then he instructed the bailiff to take the manuscripts to MacDonald and Bunyan in the choir loft. I saw with what eagerness and good will those two venerable authors received my writings; with what an honest display of hopefulness they opened them and examined their contents. But it was not long before they returned them to the bailiff with looks of bleak disappointment.

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Force

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“Force is that which makes a thing of whoever submits to it.  Exercised to the extreme, it makes the human being a thing quite literally, that is, a dead body.  Someone was there and, the next moment, no one …

“How much more varied in operation, how much more stunning in effect, is that other sort of force, that which does not kill, or rather does not kill just yet …  From the power to change a human being into a thing by making him die there comes another power, in its way more monstrous, that of making a still living being into a thing …

“As pitilessly as force annihilates, equally without pity it intoxicates those who possess or believe they possess it.  In reality, no one possesses it.”

     — Simone Weil, The Iliad or The Poem of Force 

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Meekness

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We hold these truths to be self-evident, that all men are created equal; that they are endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rights; and that among these are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness …

     – Thomas Jefferson, The Declaration of Independence 

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“Forgiveness is surrendering my right to hurt you back if you hurt me,” writes psychologist Dr. Archibald Hart.*

This suggests that forgiveness, the most recent of the core Pilgrim values to be considered in this context, is closely allied with the next:  meekness.  The connection is in fact one of inclusive subordination:  that is to say, forgiveness is simply a sub-category or sub-species of meekness.  For in the language of the New Testament, meekness is all about surrendering rights – not just my right to hurt you back, but any right whatsoever.

“Gentle Jesus, Meek and Mild,” cynically caricatured by the poet Swinburne as the “pale Galilean,” is not a popular figure with most of us.  We prefer the bold and brawny Christ of Ezra Pound:  the whip-wielding Cleanser of the Temple.  This is all well and good as far as it goes.  But it fails to take into account that the Master Himself used the word meek (Greek praus, “gentle or mild”) to describe the Blessed inheritors of the earth.  It was a rash, senseless, absurd thing to say in face of the kosmic wisdom which asserts that nothing is gained or “inherited” apart from self-assertiveness.

Give up your rights and gain the whole world.  What an idea!  This upside-down view of reality is difficult for most us to swallow.  After all, rights are the foundation and capstone of the American worldview.  Rights have been our Creed and Mantra from beginning to end.  We have a right to demand our rights because they are rightfully ours.  And we know – the lesson having been pounded into our heads time and time again – that rights and freedoms are not free:  no, they must be wrested violently from the hands of enemies, tyrants, and villains.  Rights have to be seized, preserved, and protected by sheer brute force.  Once secured, we have an obligation to fight and kill in order to retain them.  And why?  Because our rights, for reasons we’ve never even stopped to examine, are what human existence is all about.

Or are they?

Apparently Moses didn’t think so.  When his own brother and sister, Aaron and Miriam, stood up and questioned his right to lead the people of Israel, Moses spoke never a word in his own defense.  Instead, he stepped aside and let God plead his cause.  That’s why the writer of the Book of Numbers was able to say, “Now the man Moses was very meek, meeker than all men who were on the face of the earth.”

Paul of Tarsus, too, though not the sort of man anyone could accuse of being ”the meekest on the face of the earth,” had a firm grasp of this principle.  In his first letter to the Christians at Corinth, he wrote that, as an apostle, he had a right to expect physical and financial support from the church.  “Nevertheless,” he said, “we have not used this right, but endure all things lest we hinder the gospel of Christ.”

Forfeiting my rights for the sake of others and in service to a greater design — this is what it means to be meek.  And meekness is a vital feature of the Pilgrim way.  Can we possibly understand this – we who dwell in a land where children are regularly sacrificed in order that adults might secure to themselves the right to “life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness?”  Can we ever hope to walk this path — we who believe so fervently in the practice of politics, which is in essence nothing but the active grasping, holding, and wielding of self-interested power?

Sometimes one has to give up rights in order to do what’s right.

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* Archibald Hart, Unlocking The Mystery Of Your Emotions. 

The Night Terrors III

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III

We marched straight down the center aisle. The pews were filled, and every face in every pew turned slowly to regard my slow approach. I knew them all, and they knew me; but if ever my eyes met theirs, they suddenly dropped their gaze. It was an expression of shame – shame, not of themselves, but of me.

At last I stood before the chancel. On a lofty platform above me stood the Lord’s Table, draped in a cloth of purest linen that cascaded to my feet in glistening folds of white. So high and elevated was the table that I could not see over the top of it.

A golden-winged angel, robed in white, approached and blew a blast upon a silver trumpet. “All rise!” he cried, and the congregation thundered to its feet. A small door at one side of the chancel opened and a black-robed figure emerged. Such was my position in relation to his that I could not see his face, only his back as he entered. But even his back was terrifying, broad as northern wastes, broad and unfathomable as earth and sea and sky combined, black and deep as night. Over his back rolled the heavy scrolls of his long white wig, white as wool, rippling down like a mighty waterfall. He climbed some steps at the back of the great table and took his seat on a bench behind it.

In the choir loft sat the twelve jurors. They were drawn from among my friends, relations, neighbors, acquaintances, and mentors. Included in their number were Luther, MacDonald, Bunyan, and O’ Carolan, the blind Irish harper.

A bailiff, dressed in cloth-of-gold, came forward and addressed me:

“You have been brought here to stand trial,” he said. “This day the measure of your worth is to be determined.”

At this, O’ Carolan took up his harp. Hymnals were opened, and the congregation sang “Take my life and let it be consecrated, Lord, to Thee,” and “Who is on the Lord’s side? Who for Him will go?” Last of all they sang a hymn with words like these:

 

O Jesus, Thou art standing outside the fast-closed door,

In lowly patience waiting to pass the threshold o’er.

Shame on us, Christian brothers, His name and sign who bear,

O shame, thrice shame upon us, to keep Him standing there!

 

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Truth and Light

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Let the governments have possession of the school, the church, the press, billions of rubles, and millions of disciplined men turned into machines. All that apparently terrible organization of rude force is nothing in comparison with recognition of the truth, which arises in the heart of one man who knows its force and is communicated by this man to another, just as an endless number of candles are lighted from one. The light need only burn, and this seemingly powerful organization will waste away like wax before the fire.

— Leo Tolstoy, “Christianity and Patriotism”

The Night Terrors II

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II

At my question an ancient-looking man pushed his way to me through the crowd. His beard was of a shocking white in contrast with the nut-brown wrinkle of his face. His robe was of rough homespun, woven throughout and seamless. His eyes were blue and clear as the desert sky as he planted his staff upon the ground between us and spoke.

“This is a day of reckoning,” he croaked. “A day of darkness and not of light; a day of sorrow and not of rejoicing.”

Then, when he had produced chains and shackles from the voluminous folds of his mantle, I was swiftly bound hand and foot. Like an implacable and relentless shepherd he drove me with his staff at the head of that silent multitude, up a massively paved road that led straight from the quay to a city set upon a hill. All along that road, larger than life, stood marble statues of the apostles, saints, and martyrs: Peter, head-downward on the cross; Paul, bowing before the sword; Stephen, Antipas, and James the brother of John; Hus and Cranmer and George Eagles called Trudgeover-the-World. They all stood still and watched me pass, and regarded my going with troubled looks.

At the foot of the hill we began to climb a marble stair that rose by twelve flights of seven steps each to the level of the shining city above. The irons on my arms and legs chafed and cut me and grew heavier with each successive step. At the very top of the stair I saw, when I raised my eyes, a church of many spires and towers looming above me, dignified, forbidding, reverend.

At length we reached the top and stood within the twisted and fluted columns of the church’s portico. At last, a fresh breath of sea air reached me there and ruffled my hair and cooled my sweating head. Then the doors were swung open and I was led inside.

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Lion in a Land of Make-Believe

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I once met a Lion in a land of make-believe

And His mane seemed to fill the earth

Like the wind in the trees.

He smiled like the sunrise

And His roar was like the sea,

And He spoke with a world of tongues

And one was right for me.

 

And Lucy’s in the sky but she don’t need diamonds,

Flying while His eyes seem to flash like lightning,

Looking at the world from a different point of view;

And Peter’s got a sword, but he won’t misuse it,

Once you’ve found the truth, then you don’t want to lose it,

He can speak a word that will pierce your soul straight through.

 

I once saw a Lion on a road beyond the years,

And He scalded my eyes with a light

That could burn away my tears.

We plunged through a looking-glass

That overhung my mind,

And He showed me the truth at last

That had seemed so hard to find.

 

And Lucy’s in the sky but she don’t need diamonds,

Flying while His eyes seem to flash like lightning,

Looking at the world from a different point of view;

And Peter’s got a sword, but he won’t misuse it,

Once you’ve found the truth, then you don’t want to lose it,

He can speak a word that will pierce your soul straight through.

 

I once met a Lion in a land of make-believe,

And He told me He’d lead me beyond

If only I’d believe.

His jaws they were gentle

And His teeth they did not bite,

His yoke it is easy

And His burden is light.

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The Night Terrors I

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It is said that one cannot dream one’s own death and wake to tell the tale. This is a matter of some concern to me, for if this rule holds true, then I am either dead or dreaming still. Be that as it may, for the time being I choose to live in the often desperate hope that there is in fact a third possibility: that in truth I have passed through the darkest part of the night and planted one foot on the shore of a newly dawning day.

My story begins like this:

When the night was darkest, then I slept. And in my sleep I dreamed a dream. And in my dream I looked, and the sea, dark and alive and flecked with foam, stretched out at my feet and away to a shadowy horizon. I stood in the bows of a little black boat that drove of its own accord through glassy black troughs and over frothy crests of waves.

The char-black sky paled to shades of blue, and as my boat pushed on, without my will or aid, jagged shapes of land rose up before these lighter hues. Dim along the water’s edge I saw, as the curling breakers thrust me to the shore, wharfs and quays of somber iron gray, like battle ships drawn up in warlike array. And all along these quays silent faces watched my approach with deliberate, solemn stares.

At last the boat scraped up against the barnacle-encrusted pilings. Firm and gentle hands reached down and pulled me up and set me on my feet upon the landing. I stood amazed, for every one of the hundreds of faces ranged about me was familiar in some degree. There were friends and family, neighbors and acquaintances, teachers and pastors, leaders and followers. Even the authors of the books that had most influenced me were there: Lewis and Luther, Bunyan and MacDonald, Chesterton and Calvin, Foxe and Blaise Pascal. They all stood so still, as if holding their breath, as if in anxious and silent agreement that I must be the first to speak.

“What day is this?” I blurted out, not knowing why …

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A Final Note on “The Sword of Paracelsus”

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The story is now finished, but on the off chance that someone may still be interested in reading it, it will remain in the Archives of the Pilgrimagination website.  To access it, simply navigate to “Categories” in the left-hand margin of this page, click on “Sword and Stone,” scroll down to the bottom to find the Prologue and first chapter, and work your way up.

The Stone of Destiny, the prequel and companion volume to The Sword of Paracelsus, is, as far as I’m aware, still available from David C. Cook Publishers.

Thanks to all who have taken an interest in this project.

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All Is Well

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… So Donal lives a present power of heat and light in the place. Most of his early friends are gone, but he wears yet the same solemn look, with the same hovering smile. It seems to say to those who can read it, “I know in whom I have believed” … “God is,” he will say, coming out of one of his talking moods; “God is, and all is well.” When he has said that, he never says anything more, but listens only to those about him. He never disputes, rarely seeks to convince. “I will do what I can to let what light I have shine; but disputation is smoke, and serves only to obscure the light. It is to no profit – and I do like,” he will say, “to give and to get the good of things!”

    — George MacDonald, Donal Grant

Forgiveness

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I understand not living with hatred.  I understand how that can be corrupting, I got that.  I don’t understand how you gun down my wife, my mother, my father, my child, and when I see you three days later I say that I forgive you – I don’t understand that …

     Forgiveness is a big part of – especially post-civil rights movement – is a big part of African-American Christianity, and I wasn’t raised within the Christian church, I wasn’t raised within any church.  Forgiveness is a huge, huge part of it, coming out of the civil rights movement, but I can’t access that at all.   

    – Ta-Nehisi Coates, speaking to Terry Gross on WHYY’s Fresh Air, July 13, 2015 

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If my readers will permit me for the moment to slip into the first person, I have a confession to make.  Sorry as I am to have to admit it, I haven’t always found it easy to speak in complimentary terms of some of my fellow Christians.

Perhaps it would be more accurate — and more to the point — to say that I haven’t always found it easy to forgive them.  Especially American Christians.  Especially contemporary American Christians.  I haven’t found it easy to forgive them for the glitz and the glamour.  For the success schemes and the motivational hype.  For the patriotism and jingoism, the conformism and materialism, the politicizing power-plays and downright lack of compassion.  To put it another way, I’ve been hard pressed to reconcile their version of the faith with my own understanding of the Pilgrim Path.  (Just for the record, I haven’t found it easy to forgive myself, either.)

Now that that’s out in the open, I have another confession to make.  Over the past several years, a number of incidents have been played out on the national and international stage that have caused me to re-evaluate.  Shocking and terrible things.  Dreadful things that have happened to Christian people, to which those same Christian people have responded in such a meek, humble, unassuming, and Christ-like way that I’ve been forced, in spite of my innate cantankerousness and cynicism, to feel unabashedly proud of their witness.  These believers have shown themselves to be true Pilgrims in the earth.  I can only hope to be worthy of their example someday.

The first of these tragic incidents took place nearly a decade ago.  On October 2, 2006, Charles Carl Roberts IV, a milk truck driver deeply embittered over the death of his own infant daughter, walked into a one-room Amish schoolhouse in West Nickel Mines, Pennsylvania, and told all the girls – ten of them – to lie down facing the blackboard.  After ordering the boys and the adults to leave, Roberts apologized for what he was about to do, explaining, “I’m angry at God, and I need to punish some Christian girls to get even with Him.”  Then he raised his shotgun and started shooting.  By the time the state police arrived, Roberts himself and two of the girls were dead.  Three more died later that night.

The Amish community’s response?  Incredibly, in the midst of their shock and grief, they extended grace and compassion to the killer’s family.  On the very afternoon of the shooting, the grandfather of one of the slain girls said he forgave Charles Roberts.  Later the same day, Amish neighbors visited the Roberts family to comfort them in their sorrow and pain.  As a result, the hundreds of reporters who descended upon Lancaster County to cover the brutal murder came away with a very different story – a story of forgiveness and suffering love.

The second incident occurred earlier this year.  On Sunday, February 15, 2015, the Libyan branch of ISIS released a video depicting their brutal murder of twenty-one Coptic Christians.  These men, who were drawn from among the poorest of Egypt’s poor, had been working as day-laborers in Libya when they were kidnapped by Islamic State forces.  They were their families’ sole support.  They had literally nothing except the thing for which they died – their belief in Jesus – and they died because they would not let it go.

The thirty-five days following the initial kidnapping were days of fear and silent torment for the families back at home.  When the news came that their sons, brothers, and fathers had been executed, they were shattered.  But that’s where this story takes an unexpected turn.  As these Egyptian Christians tell it, it was only a matter of hours before their grief gave way to rejoicing.   Somehow or other, they found themselves praising God for the martyrs’ homegoing.  Some of them actually felt a sense of gratitude towards ISIS for ushering their loved ones into Christ’s presence.  What’s more, they repeatedly expressed an earnest desire to pray for the terrorists’ spiritual enlightenment and salvation.  Their deepest wish was that the members of ISIS might also come to know the love and forgiveness of the Lord Jesus.

That leads us to Charleston.

On the evening of June 17, 2015, Dylann Roof, a twenty-one-year-old white supremacist, walked into a Bible Study at the historic Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church in downtown Charleston, South Carolina.  Concealed in his fanny pack he carried a Glock 41. 45-caliber handgun.  After receiving a warm welcome from the members of the church, Roof sat listening to Pastor Clementa Pinckney expounding the Scriptures for a full hour before producing his weapon and opening fire, killing nine of the fourteen people in attendance.  Pastor Pinckney was one of the first to die.  The motive for Roof’s unspeakable crime?  Pure, unmitigated racial hatred.  “You rape our women and you’re taking over our country,” he told his victims (six of whom were women themselves).  “You have to go.”

What can be done about this kind of senseless violence?  Presidential candidate Mike Huckabee, one of the most notorious of all high-profile mainstream American establishment Christians, has the obvious answer:  more guns.  Things like this wouldn’t happen, insists Huckabee, if instead of welcoming strangers into the church with open arms, Christians would simply take the initiative to arm themselves against them.  “Frankly,” he maintains, “the best way to stop a bad person with a gun is to have a good person with a weapon that is equal or superior to the one he’s using.”

There’s sound worldly wisdom in what Huckabee says, of course.  Unfortunately, that wisdom is at complete odds with the way of the Pilgrim.  The Christians at Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church took a different tack.  From beginning to end they responded to the hater with love.  As a matter of fact, Roof has admitted that he nearly abandoned his insidious plan because the church members were “so nice to him.”  And their “niceness” didn’t stop there.  When Roof appeared in Charleston County court via video conference at a bond hearing following his arrest, survivors of the shooting and relatives of five of the victims spoke to him directly, telling him that they forgave him and that they were praying for his soul.  Guns were the last thing on their mind.

Is this hard to understand?    Ta-Nehisi Coates, national correspondent for The Atlantic, thinks so.  On the July 13 edition of NPR’s Fresh Air, Coates told interviewer Terry Gross that he “can’t access” this kind of forgiveness.  And who can blame him?  From a certain perspective, what he says makes perfect sense.  After all, Coates, like Huckabee, is operating on the basis of the categories, assumptions, and parameters of the kosmos.  Like any self-respecting American, he takes it for granted that it’s sheer stupidity to be weak and vulnerable, to let people walk all over you, to endure pain, insult, offense, or loss without seeking revenge, to give love in exchange for hate.  As a stranger to the Pilgrim life, he is incapable of perceiving the in-breaking reality of the topsy-turvy invisible Kingdom of God, nor can he comprehend what it means to follow the Suffering Servant who said, “Forgive, and you will be forgiven.”

Meanwhile, the Pilgrims at Emanuel African Methodist Episcopal Church are working from an entirely different frame of reference.

 

The Sword of Paracelsus: Epilogue

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It is a night to remember, and Morgan will not forget it.

Nine of them around the dining room table. Nine pilgrims on the threshold. The least likely, least expected, most stunning and impossible gathering of a lifetime. And he is a part of it.

A week ago it would have been unthinkable. A mere seven days by the calendar on his mother’s kitchen wall. Yet here they all are.

At the head of the table, his father: tall, godlike, silver-haired, shaven, and impeccable in a blue Oxford shirt and gray flannel jacket.

Beside him, his mother: a ministering angel, porcelain-skinned, crowned with gold, hovering over the evening meal like the evening star.

Next, his grandmother: stately and serene, shockingly rational, more like Grandma Moses than Grandma Wilma.

And then Moira, leaning on her husband’s arm, a look of sad resignation softening her sharp features; George, talking loudly and gesturing broadly; Peter Alcuin, nodding agreeably; and Baxter Knowles, eyes rolling and tongue clucking while his mother admonishes him to eat his peas.

Too awestruck to eat, Morgan lays his fork aside, leans back in his chair, and listens. Bits of conversation reach his ears unbidden.

“… Nothing more to be done …”

“… Land of the Sun’s Going.”

“… Cold case files …”

“… Inisfail …”

“… LAPD.”

“… Not even a forwarding address.”

The evening is slipping fast away. His father has risen. He is standing at the head of the table, addressing the entire group, saying something about Jacob’s Pillow and Pillar. He is quoting a rhyming couplet:

 

     Thy pillow was but type and shade at best,

     But we the Substance have, and on Him rest.

 

“And thus,” he concludes, “are accomplished the miracles of the One.”

There is a low murmur around the table. The speaker reaches into the deep side-pocket of his coat. And now he is beckoning—beckoning for Morgan to come forward.

Morgan shoves back his chair and gets to his feet. His heart too full to speak, he scuffles to the head of the table. There he stands, facing his father, a nameless longing burning deep inside.

“Take it,” says John Izaak with a smile.

His father holds out his hand. There is something in it. The something is hard to recognize at first. It looks like a bundle of rags. It is in fact a sheaf of makeshift paper. The leaves are tied together at the edges with bits of frayed string. At the top of the first sheet, in a bold hand and letters the color of dried blood, stands a title: John Izaak: Journal of My Imprisonment.

Morgan reaches out and takes it. He squeezes his father’s hand. “Thank you,” he says in a husky voice. “I’ll treasure it always.”

Another murmur. He leaves the dining room and walks to the front door. He steps out onto the porch. The stars are shining brightly. A faint gleam plays over the ruins of St. Halistan’s tower. Far away, at the bottom of the long slope to the sea, lights flash and twinkle at the Fisherman’s Wharf.

Morgan smiles. He wipes his eyes. Then he opens the leather bag hanging at his waist and slips the precious journal inside. And as he does, his fingers touch something else—something soft and sheer as gossamer. A something that almost is and nearly isn’t. The Feth Fiada.

His hand is on the doorknob. His heart is pounding softly. His eyes strain into the dim and distant West.

“Thank you,” he says again, whispering his gratitude into the cool, surrounding darkness.

And then he turns, slips inside the warm house, and rejoins the buzzing party at the table.

The End

 

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The Sword of Paracelsus: Dust to Dust, Part 3

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“Dee!” cried John Izaak, making a lunge for the door. But Morgan was quicker.

“Stop!” he screamed, throwing himself against his father with all his weight and thrusting him back towards the rear of the cave. “Don’t do it, Dad! Don’t go out there!”

John Izaak gripped his son by the shoulders and stared down at him with a bewildered expression on his face. “But why, Morgan? What is it? What happened to Dee?”

Morgan slumped to the ground and hugged his father’s knees.

“I had forgotten!” he said in a despairing tone of voice. “Mrs. A warned us about this, too! She said this kind of thing can happen to people who go to the Sidhe and then come back again! She told us a story about a young warrior named Oisin. He went away to the world of Faerie, and when he returned he was a decrepit old man!”

“And how did she explain that?”

“It’s because time is different in the Sidhe! You can’t ever tell how it will match up with time in our world. It’s always changing! In the story, Oisin had been gone about a hundred years and didn’t even know it! With Eny it was the other way round: she left Santa Piedra after right school and got home in time for dinner, but she felt she’d been in Faerie for months and months!”

“I see,” mused his father. He closed his eyes and seemed to be thinking. At last he opened them and said, “Nothing bad happened to her, did it?”

“Well … no,” Morgan admitted.

“And what about Baxter?” his father pressed. “He walked out of here a few minutes ago. No problem. Right?”

“That’s true, but—”

“But what?”

“Dad! Don’t you see? You were in the Morrigu’s tower a really long time.” He bit his lip and nodded towards the pile of dust on the threshold. “I couldn’t bear to have that happen to you! Not after everything I’ve gone through to find you!”

“But you’re forgetting that John Dee was an unnaturally old man. Over four hundred years old! I guess I’ve been in the Sidhe about eleven or twelve years. That’s not enough to turn me to dust. Is it?”

“I told you! It doesn’t work that way. There’s no rhyme or reason to it.”

“Well, then,” said John Izaak. “What do you suggest we do? We can’t very well stay here.”

“We’ll go back! We can live with the Danaans. Or the Fir Bolg! They’ll take us in!”

His father glanced over his shoulder at the two boulders and the sloping wall at the rear of the cave. “How?”

Morgan was at a loss. His eyes seemed to go dark. “Oh, I don’t know!” he cried bitterly, getting to his feet and stumbling over to the wall. “Don’t ask me! All I know is that you can’t go out there! I just can’t take that chance! I—”

All at once a thought struck him. Standing away from the wall, he reached down and touched his belt. Yes—the miraculous bolg was still hanging there! Quickly opening the flap, he rummaged around inside.

“Wait a minute!” he shouted. “I’ve got the answer!”

With that he drew out the Feth Fiada. With a flourish and a cry of triumph, he held it up before his father’s eyes. The magical cloak flowed down over his fingertips like a skein of weightless satin, like a vibrant curtain of silver mist, shimmering subtly in the dim light of the cavern.

“We can travel between the worlds with this!” he said. “We can do it right now! In a heartbeat! She said so!”

John Izaak walked slowly over to his son and put an arm around his shoulder. “Morgan,” he said. “I don’t want to go.”

“You don’t—what?”

“I’m not going back to the Otherworld. Not now. Not ever. Not for anything.”

“But—you mean you wouldn’t—not even for me?”

His father shook his head.

Suddenly Morgan saw red. “I’ll make you, then!” he said, whirling the cloak above his head. “She said I could whisk you away just by throwing this over your shoulder! And I will!”

Again John Izaak shook his head. He smiled sadly.

“I love you, Morgan,” he said. “And I’m indebted to you. You came after me when I was helpless. For that I owe you more than I can ever repay. But now—well, what I want now is to see your mother. That’s the longing of my heart.”

Mom! How could he have forgotten about her? Suddenly Morgan saw her pale eyes before him. He saw her sweet face framed by a halo of fine angel-like hair. He realized how he’d missed her and how much he wanted to see her again.       

“But you—I mean, you can’t—you don’t want to disintegrate, do you?”

“Listen to me, son. For the chance of seeing her again, I’ll take that risk. And a hundred others like it. A thousand times over. Can you understand that?”

All at once a light went on in his brain. He could. And he did. Oh, yes!—he’d risk it himself, he thought! A hundred times! A thousand times! A million times!

Suddenly shy in his father’s presence, he bent his head and put the Feth Fiada back into the bolg. Looking up tentatively, he took his dad’s hand.

“Come on, then,” he said. “What are we waiting for?”

Once more John Izaak smiled. And then, hand in hand, they ducked beneath the cave’s low, stony lintel, stepped over the heap of dust on the threshold, and walked out into the fading light on the shore.

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