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The Sword of Paracelsus: Faces, Part 1

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Eny stopped writing and glanced up from her notebook as the bus bounded over a pothole and rumbled through the intersection at Hollywood and Highland.  Someone in the seat behind her had tapped her on the shoulder:  tap … and then again, tap … ever so lightly.  Or so she thought.  She turned to see who it was.  The seat was empty.

Eny shook her head.

They must think I’m a complete idiot.

With a cool eye she scanned the rows of seats between her own and the back of the bus.  The corners of her mouth turned upward in a grim smile.  Inaiah and Randall.  Just as she had suspected.

Inaiah and Randall were a pair of troublemakers from her algebra class.  The same pair who had apparently entered into a dark and solemn pact to make her life as miserable as possible.  They were sitting about five rows back, staring innocently out the window at the imposing façade of the Egyptian Theater.  Eny aimed a smirk in their direction.  They didn’t seem to notice.

Without a word, she tucked a loose strand of coppery hair behind her ear and went back to her poem:

 

        L. A. in the barren heat

            Inclines my soul to bleak defeat …

 

No, she thought.  She bit her lip and squinted at what she’d written.  Inverting the pencil, she scrubbed it out and tried again—

 

     L. A. in the autumn heat—

                     Withered dreams, barren street …

 

Thok!  Something small but hard and forceful, like the fillip of a flicked fingertip, struck her directly on the back of the head.  She spun around just in time to see the two boys duck down in their seats, showing her only the tops of their inverted baseball caps.  Sounds of muffled laughter rose above the low growl of the bus’s engine.  Eny shot an inquiring glance at an elderly woman in a shawl and frumpy purple dress sitting two rows behind her.  The woman returned her look with a non-committal shrug.

Once again she attempted to concentrate on her rhymes:

     Pierced by the pitiless glare on glass

         Of cars and buses as they pass … 

 

Splat!  Starting violently, she dropped the notebook and reached up to touch the back of her hair.  In disgust she flung the spit-wad out the window and wheeled fiercely on her assailants who were now laughing and jeering openly.  The old woman, who was busy searching for something in her bag, appeared not to have witnessed the assault.

Eny felt her neck stiffen.  Her jaw clenched and a burning clot of red-hot anger welled up behind her eyes.  Desperately she fought to remember everything her father had ever told her about self-control.  Turn the other cheek, she thought.  Trembling with the effort, she reined in her fury, faced forward, and returned to her composition for the third time:

 

     My thoughts stray to another world

        In comfortable gray encurled …  

 

“Aaak!” shrieked the old woman.  Dink! went the bell telling the driver that a passenger wanted to get off.  Once more Eny looked back over her shoulder.  Apparently somebody’s aim had gone astray.  The old lady, with a distressed expression on her face, was cursing and pawing the back of her neck.  Reaching into her backpack, Eny found an unused tissue and offered it to her.  As she did, the brakes squealed and groaned, the driver pulled over to the curb, and a tall, lanky man in a hooded sweatshirt stood up at the back of the bus.

She was not prepared for what happened next.  With one big-knuckled hand the tall man gripped Inaiah by the shoulder.  With the other he seized Randall by the scruff of his collar.  Yanking the pair to their feet, he drove them to the front of the bus and escorted them down the steps just as the door hissed open with a whoosh.  It was all over in fifteen seconds.

Eny craned her neck and tried to get a better look at the man as he stood there on the pavement with the two culprits firmly in hand.  The soup kitchen, she thought—perhaps that was where she had seen him before.  He had his hood drawn up over his head, so it was difficult to be sure.  But as the bus pulled away he turned and gave her a momentary glimpse of his face—a narrow, craggy face with deep-set, sky-blue eyes.  At the sight of it, she gasped and caught her breath.  Then the bus lurched forward and the vision was gone.

Stunned and speechless, she stumbled off the bus at Gower Street and moved numbly up the sidewalk.  She had no explanation for the strange event she’d just witnessed.  Nor could she account for the emotions it had stirred in her.  She felt certain that she did not know the man who had delivered her from her tormentors.  And yet …

The more she thought about it, the more her brain began to reel.  As if in a daze she walked the two blocks north to the Presbyterian Church.  Its tall brick tower, which reminded her strongly of the shattered tower of St. Halistan’s, loomed above her in the shimmering heat.  And as its shadow fell across her path another vision rose up before her mind’s eye:  a vision of storm and wind and darkness, of giants and flying ships, of lightning and thunder and a gallant figure wielding a glittering sword.

This vision hung in the air during the time it took to draw two long breaths.  Then it dissolved like smoke.  As it faded, Eny saw a big black crow flutter down from the top of the tower and alight upon a windowsill just above her head.  It cocked its eye at her and croaked loudly.

Hitching up her backpack, she picked up her feet and ran as fast as she could to meet her mother at the soup kitchen.

(To be continued …)

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The Sword of Paracelsus: Second Journal Entry

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Day 49

 

If, when my bones are found crumbling to dust in this lightless hollow beneath the earth, someone should happen to come across the pages of this unhappy history lying scattered among my blasted and bleached remains; if, I say, someone should take the trouble to read what I have written here, his first inclination may be to ask how a wretch in my position could possibly have produced such a record under such conditions.  The Morrigu, of course, has not been so accommodating as to provide me with pen and paper. 

The explanation is simple.  Ingenuity answers every need; and need, in turn, spurs the needy to invention.  Nothing comes from nothing; everything arises out of opposition, conflict, and hunger.  This, as Boehme writes, is the universal principle behind the Primal Essence.  This is the creative role of the Astringent in the unfolding of the fabric of the cosmos.

To state it plainly:  I have contrived to make ink by depriving myself of water.  Every other day I mix half my ration of the precious fluid with a drop of my own blood and some of the soot that still lies beneath the blackened hearthstone of an ancient fireplace in the corner of my cell.  My paper, too, is compounded of water and fibers from various sources—my own rotting garments, bits of straw picked up off the floor, and shreds of my ragged bedding.  Pens I have managed to whittle out of splints of wood chipped from the bedstead.  My knife is made from an iron bracket that once held the bed-frame to its legs.  This rude tool I have painstakingly whetted and sharpened against the stones of my prison wall.

With a similar implement of my own design I have at last initiated the slow, almost imperceptible process of chipping away at the walls themselves.  The reader who chances to stumble upon this sad account of my life underground may well laugh at the naiveté of my plans for escape.  If so, I can only respond that he does not know what it is like to lie where I am lying now.  The human soul cannot live without hope.  Idle hands soon wither and die.  At any rate, time is of no concern to him who no longer senses its passage.  And so I have no reason not to continue as I have begun—dig, dig, digging the pasty mortar out of the dime-thin spaces between the slimy stones …

 

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                          O world invisible, we view thee,

                           O world intangible, we touch thee!

                                 (Francis Thompson, “In No Strange Land”)

 

Sadly, vision – the first of our Pilgrim Values – has been almost entirely co-opted and corrupted by salesmen, CEOs, motivational speakers, and corporate “leadership” gurus. In their hands this priceless treasure has been transmogrified into something closely resembling “visions (or delusions) of grandeur” – a glitzy but hollow shell of its former self, stuffed with such empty kosmic values as self-aggrandizement and lust for success. Suffice it to say that this kind of “vision” has no place in the Pilgrim life.

The vision we have in mind is a matter of seeing, pure and simple. To be more precise, it’s a way of seeing. Before you can be, you have to be able to see.

To a certain extent, this vision is the result of conscious choice and persistent practice. But at an even deeper level, it’s a gift:

“Blessed are your eyes for they see, and your ears for they hear; for assuredly I say to you that many prophets and righteous men desired to see what you see, and did not see it, and to hear what you hear, and did not hear it” (Matthew 13:16, 17).

“Blessed are you, Simon Bar-Jonah, for flesh and blood has not revealed this to you, but My Father who is in heaven” (Matthew 16:17).    

Pilgrim vision is granted to those who are willing to stand in the place of the passive receiver.  The starry-eyed and the agenda-driven, blinded by plans and ambitions of their own, know nothing about it. Once appropriated, it can be cultivated and developed in a number of ways. But whatever shape it takes, it is always a thing of primary importance. For as goes the vision, so goes the rest. In a very real sense, it’s the tail that wags the dog. As Jesus put it, “The lamp of the body is the eye. Therefore, when your eye is good, your whole body also is full of light. But when your eye is bad, your body also is full of darkness. Therefore take heed that the light which is in you is not darkness.” (Luke 11:34, 35)

   Scottish lore tells of a woman who was gifted with the fabled “second sight.” This rare and highly coveted ability was bestowed upon her in exchange for a favor she had done – not altogether of her own free choice – for the fairy-folk. It seems that on a certain evening a strange woman clad all in green appeared on her doorstep with a beautiful child in her arms.

   “Will you nurse my baby until I return?” asked the fairy (for such indeed she was).

   The woman stared for a moment, completely at a loss. Then she heard her own voice saying, “Yes. Certainly I’ll do that.”

   A year passed. During all that time, the woman never lacked for anything: all her physical and material needs were miraculously and abundantly supplied. At last the fairy returned.

   “You have been kind to my child,” said she. “Come with me now, and I shall show you my house.”

   The woman followed her through a shaded wood and up a sunny green hillside. Near the top of the hill the fairy lifted up a turf in the bank, revealing a wooden door. She opened the door and the two of them entered.

    “What do you see?” asked the lady in green.

   The woman squinted in the dim light. “Not much,” she said. “A bare chamber. A dirt floor.”

   From her belt the fairy drew forth a goblet containing a green liquid. She poured three drops into the woman’s left eye.

    “Look again!” she said.

    The woman did. Before her lay a spacious and beautiful country; away and away it stretched into the dim blue distance. There were green hills fringed by trees. Crystal streams flashed in the bright daylight. A broad lake shone like burnished silver.

   For many years afterward the woman retained this capacity to see what other mortals were entirely unable to discern. Only the fairies could have given her such a gift. Only they could take it away.        

Pilgrim vision is like that. It’s a kind of second sight. It is not about “chasing dreams,” hatching “visionary” plots, or cooking up grandiose schemes for self-advancement. It has nothing to do with aiming for ever greater heights of success, power, and wealth. On the contrary, vision is the rare ability to see the unseen; and having seen it, to order one’s steps according to the radically different pattern of reality revealed in the light of that bright but invisible world.

 

The Wing of the Black Crow

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The Wing of the Black Crow

 

The wing of the black crow

                   Sails silent down the sun-blue sky.

 

At rest he sits, head downward-cocked,

                   Upon a barren, thorny branch;

 

He utters raw and raucous notes;

                   He lifts his glossy, glinting pinions,

                   He dives into the sun,

 

                   And diving makes his blackness jump,

                             A flash of jet,

                             A somber star,

                   To sing bright his Maker’s praise

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The Sword of Paracelsus: News from the South, Part 3

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When George was gone, Morgan went back to Eny’s letter:

 

I know this is hard for you, Morgan, but you’ve got to accept it.  I know you’re dealing with issues of your own.  You have reasons for wanting to find a way in.  I realize that.  I’d help you if I could, but I can’t.  I’m under geis.  I made a vow, a promise.  I’ve got to keep that promise now that you-know-who has the Stone.  Everything depends on it.  Even my dad and Rev. Alcuin agreed that this was the best plan.  Somehow you’ve got to see that too.  What if She were to come back to Santa Piedra looking for me?  It makes me shiver just to think about it.   

Even here, in the middle of the big city, far away from St. Halistan’s and the Cave of the Hands, I’m always looking over my shoulder.  I get nervous every time I see a crow.  I cry a lot and don’t sleep much.  Worst of all, I haven’t picked up the fiddle since we got to L.A.— it just isn’t the same without Simon.  But I know that I’m in the right place.  At least for the time being.  It’s too dangerous at home.  And if I were to go—you-know-where—well, that would be like handing myself over to the enemy.  I can’t do that. 

Got to close.  It’s late, and there’s school in the morning.  Write me.  I’ll write again as soon as I can.  Remember that I’m your friend forever.

                                               Love, 

                                                          Eny  

Gently, carefully, Morgan folded the letter, sliding the crease between the thumb and forefinger of his left hand.  For a brief moment he held it to his nostrils, hoping to catch some faint hint of his friend in the scent of the paper.  Then, replacing it in the envelope, he pulled his backpack out from under the table, slipped the letter into a concealed pocket deep inside the bag, and zipped it shut.

After that he sat for several minutes with his elbows on his knees and his chin in his hands, staring steadily at the long blue bundle at his feet.  Reaching down, he lifted it into his lap.  Slowly he unwound the flannel wrapping.  Gripping the hilt with his right hand and resting the blade on his left palm, he held the sword up to the light of the desk lamp.

But what was this?  Squinting narrowly at the blue blade, he noticed now for the first time that it bore strange markings.  He blinked and looked again.  Slowly he shifted he sword in his hands, deflecting the glare and studying it closely in the changing angle of the light.

He had not been wrong.  There could be no mistaking it now.  Three long, straight lines ran lengthwise down the shining steel, crossed at intervals by perpendicular hatch-marks.  And on the curved crossguard was an inscription in an unfamiliar alphabet—

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Morgan let out a low whistle.  Lightly he ran his fingertips over the strange letters.  They were engraved deeply and solidly into the silky smoothness of the glittering gold.  Somehow it gave him a sense of profound satisfaction just to touch them.  They spoke to him of permanence, antiquity, and power.

Turning the sword over, he discovered yet another inscription written in the same outlandish alphabet on the obverse side of the crossguard.  It was shorter than  the first one—

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He stared at the alien characters until his eyes were sore.  Again and again he turned the sword in his hands.  How was it possible that he hadn’t  seen these odd engravings before?

And then it occurred to him:  never once since the sword had fallen into his possession—not until this very moment—had he taken time to study it closely.  Yes, he was familiar with its shape and size.  He had hefted its weight and even witnessed the stunning release of its powers.  He was acquainted with it in a general way.  But he did not yet know it intimately.

The reasons were obvious.  When he had wielded it on the night of the Battle for the Stone, it had been in the midst of darkness, terror, and tremors of the earth.  When he had heaved it up to strike the rock at the rear of the cavern, his thoughts had been intent upon a single goal:  that of opening a door into the Other World.  The rest of the time—two long months—he had kept the miraculous thing hidden away in its flannel graveclothes, fearful of discovery, anxious to protect it from prying eyes.

Now his mind flew back to the anguish of that bleak afternoon in the Cave of the Hands.  Again he saw himself lying on the barren floor of the silent and dripping chamber.  Again a nameless and powerful longing swept over him.  A determination to find his father at any cost gripped him by the throat.

But then another thought flashed across his mind—an inspiring, energizing thought.  These inscriptions, this writing, these unknown words—perhaps they held the secret he was seeking.  Perhaps they could provide him with the key that would unlock the power of the sword and subject it to his will.  Suddenly he felt sure of this.  There was not the slightest shred of doubt in his mind.  All he had to do now was learn to read the ciphers.  And what could be simpler?  Hadn’t his father been a linguist?

His heart pounding, Morgan wrapped up the sword and stowed it away.  Then he rose, crossed the room, and pulled down five or six ancient volumes from the bookshelves on the opposite wall.  In a cloud of dust he dumped them in a heap upon the workbench.

Then, seating himself in the chair, he began searching for the key to the unknown language.

 

The Sword of Paracelsus: News from the South, Part 2

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“Ah.  I see you got it!” said the broadly grinning figure on the threshold.  “That’s good.”

George Ariello, resident caretaker and head custodian of St. Halistan’s Church, was leaning into the room from the bottom step, one hand on the door-jamb and the other mopping his brown forehead with a red bandana.  “I brought it over as soon as the mail came.  Figured you’d come straight here as soon as school let out.  What’s the matter?  You look like you’ve seen a ghost!”

Morgan felt the hot blood rush up his neck and into his cheeks.  “Nothing’s the matter.  You startled me, that’s all.  And yes, I got the letter.  Thanks, George.”

He was sitting at a scarred and battered workbench in the corner of his new retreat:  the big janitorial closet adjoining the electrical room in the church basement.  George had offered him this space soon after the fall of the tower, and Morgan had spent most of the summer lugging boxes down the stairs and getting things organized.  Three rows of unfinished pine shelves along the west wall held everything that remained of his father’s books and alchemical equipment:  pestles and mortars, alembics and cucurbits, hermetic jars and several coils of copper tubing.  The workbench and office chair were gifts from Rev. Alcuin—overflow from the clutter in the minister’s museum-like office.

The “dungeon”, as Morgan called it, had taken some getting used to.  Compared with his old lab in the tower it was dark, damp, and mildewy.  Mops and buckets stood clustered around an antique washing machine in one corner, filling the air with a wet, musty smell.  Like everything else at St. Halistan’s, the walls were made of the speckled granite quarried in the coastal hills around Santa Piedra more than a century before.  So old and permeated with ground moisture was the mortar between the stones that it had long since begun to crumble away into moldy paste and dry dust.  There were no windows, and the door at the bottom of the basement stairs was the only way in or out.

All things considered, the “dungeon” was far from ideal.  But it was his, and Morgan had to have a place of his own.  There were, after all, certain things that couldn’t be done—and some things that couldn’t be kept—at home.  Especially with his grandmother in the house.

George, who was still hanging in the doorway, cleared his throat.  “I was just wondering,” he said.

Morgan looked up at him and raised an eyebrow.

“Wondering why she sent it to my address.”

“I don’t know.  Why?”

“It’s just that I don’t hear much from either one of them.  Most of the letters that come to my house are for you.  I’m not surprised about Moira, of course.  But I hadn’t counted on losing contact with Eny.  I let them go south because it seemed the right thing to do.  The Reverend said so, too.  But they haven’t called or anything in over a month.”

Morgan shrugged.  “Maybe she thinks you’re busy.  Maybe she’s busy.  Maybe she sends my letters to your address because she thinks I don’t spend much time at home.  Maybe she doesn’t want my mom to be bothered.  There could be a lot of reasons.”

George shrugged.  “Maybe so.  You don’t spend much time at home.”  He turned to go, then ducked back through the doorway.  “Everything okay over on your side of the wall?  Between you and your mother, I mean?”

Morgan nodded.  “Just a little crowded right now.”

George gave a short, hoarse laugh.  “And me right next door, with more room than I know what do with.  Funny, isn’t it?  I used to say I said I’d give anything to be rid of that woman.  But it’s no fun living alone.”

Morgan shifted in his chair.

“So just remember what I told you, Morgan.  Mi casa es tu casa.  If you need some space, you’re always welcome over on my side.”

“That’s nice, George, but I’ve got all the space I need.  Thanks to you and Rev. Alcuin.”

Even as he spoke, Morgan saw George’s gaze drop.  Suddenly he had an uncomfortable feeling that the custodian’s eyes were probing the shadows beneath the old workbench.  With a swift involuntary movement, he moved his chair to block up the exposed space.

George frowned.  “What you got there?”

“Where?”

“There.”  He inclined his head towards the workbench.  “Under the table.  The long blue thing.”

“Oh, that.  Nothing.”

“Nothing?”

“Well, not exactly nothing.  Something for school.  My … gym class.”

George grinned. “First time I’ve known you to show any interest in gym class.  What is it?  Looks too thin for a baseball bat.  Besides, this is football season.”

Morgan hesitated.  “It’s a fishing pole.”

George looked doubtful.

“Seriously.  I signed up for a fishing class.  Third period.  Down on the Point.”

George’s thick black eyebrows arched upward.  “Fishing?  For P.E.?  Never heard of that before.”

“Sure.  They offer all kinds of Phys. Ed. electives now.  Bicycling, weight training, bowling, fencing.  Fishing.”

George shook his head.  “I guess schools nowadays are more progressive than I thought.”

With that, he turned and climbed back up the stairs . ..

(To be continued)

The Sword of Paracelsus: News from the South, Part 1

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September 23,  _____

Hollywood, California

 

Dear Morgan,

Hollywood isn’t what you think it is.  It isn’t what anybody thinks it is. 

Sure, there’s the Walk of Fame and the Chinese Theater.  There’s the Pantages, and the Hollywood Sign, and the Capitol Records Tower (Mom says it looks like a big stack of pancakes with a needle on top).  Down on the Boulevard you can see people selling maps to Stars’ homes, and every once in a while a big double-decker bus rolls by full of gawping tourists.  I guess some people find it exciting.  But when you live here you can’t help noticing the grunge around the edges of the glitter and glitz.  And behind it all, down the alleys and up the side streets, back in the neighborhoods where the real people live—well, that’s a whole different world. 

It’s a world where men sleep in dark stairwells wrapped in dirty blankets.  Where bag ladies in heavy overcoats stalk the streets pushing shopping carts filled with all their worldly possessions.  It’s a place where hollow-eyed kids sit on the broken doorsteps of empty houses and play behind chain-link fences in parking lots littered with broken glass.  It’s a land of noise and neon where almost everywhere you go somebody comes up and asks you for money.  That’s the real Hollywood. 

I still can’t get used to the sidewalks.  They’re covered with black spots, like a leopard’s skin—blotches of discarded chewing gum.  The medians are all dirt and asphalt and weeds, and most of them are thick with cigarette butts and beer bottles.  Some of the walls are so loaded down with graffiti that they seem to be crumbling under the weight of it.  And there are metal bars on all the windows and retractable padlocked gates, like steel accordions, on every shop front. 

Mom and I are staying with my aunt Grania in her apartment on the south side of town.  She’s the reason we came to L.A.  We knew she’d take us in, and it seemed like a good place to be anonymous.  Grania’s nice, but a little scatter-brained.  She says she moved here to break into “the Industry.”  So far she’s been in a couple of stage plays at the local “Actors Co-op.”  She spends the rest of her time waitressing at a Thai restaurant.  We don’t see a whole lot of her.

There’s a meal program for the homeless every afternoon in one of the big Sunday school rooms at the Presbyterian church.  A sort of soup kitchen.  Mom volunteers .  Sometimes I stop by after school to help her serve.  You see some interesting characters there.  Up close and personal, too.  Most of them don’t smell very nice. 

School is kind of scary.  The kids are tough and unfriendly—gang-bangers, some of them.  It’s hard to connect.  I’m new, and nobody wants to talk to me.  A few of the girls make fun of my blue eye. 

I eat alone at lunchtime, out in the sun.  The “cool” people get all the shady spots.  I guess September must be the hottest month of the year in Southern California.  My dad used to say that the folks up north want to secede from the south and start a new state of their own.  I’m beginning to see why.    

No, you’re not bothering me.  I’m always happy to hear from you, but I do wish you’d stop begging me to come home.  You already know why I can’t do that.  As for the other idea you mentioned, I’ve told you a hundred times why I can’t even discuss the possibility of going back to—well, you-know-where.  There’s no way in the world that I can take you there.  Not now.  Not ever.  Not even if I wanted to.  Please don’t ask again.   

I’m not angry with you, Morgan.  I hope you’re not angry with me.  I never asked for any of this to happen.  It wasn’t my idea …  

 

Morgan looked up at the sound of footsteps descending the stairs.  Shoving the blue bundle under the table with his foot, he tossed the letter aside and swiveled in his chair to face the door …

(To be continued)

 

In Babylon

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In Babylon

 

From Eden to the land of Nod

Cain went under the curse of God,

            The man who knew no pity;

And having slain his brother found

An unoffending spot of ground

            And builded him a city.

 

Then brick on brick and stone on stone

He raised a tower of his own,

            Full fit to be a prison;

Now walled within he stands despising

This bondage of his own devising

            And wonders how it’s risen.

 

Now glass and girders, steel, cement

Assail the stars and firmament

            Till he has near forgot them;

Now earth, air, water, hills, and trees

Become the chattel (he believes)

            Of those who’ve paid and bought them.

 

In Babylon where rivers run

Hot as serpents in the sun,

            Cold as souls of misers,

Upon the ladder’s lowest rung

My people’s harps and hearts were hung

            As prey for advertisers.

 

And they were taught with deft aplomb

To scale the heights; they clawed and clomb

            And nearly touched the heavens.

So sapped of all humanity

And flush with fell urbanity,

            They eat their bread with leaven

 

Where bleak barrages pounce from perches

Over streets, and cable searches

            Homes with hooks and talons;

Where baited pleasures lead the lured

Down precipitous paths insured

            By congressmen and felons.

 

 In Babylon did Genghis Khan

Turn profits on the White House Lawn,

            Then ringing up the churches

He called a meeting of the Board

To barter for their Golden Hoard

            And hanged them by their purses.       

 

In Babylon where I was born

My wings were clipped, my locks were shorn,

            And I was made the target

Of researchers and analysts

And celebrated panelists

            Who put me on the market.

 

And now that I’ve been marked and sold

It seems my story’s all been told

            For those who’ve ears to hear it;

So marvel not nor weep for me

But get thee to a nunnery

            Or lose both soul and spirit.

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       I went up to my study. The familiar faces of my books welcomed me. I threw myself in my reading-chair, and gazed around me with pleasure. I felt it so homely here. All my old friends–whom somehow I hoped to see some day–present there in the spirit ready to talk with me any moment when I was in the mood …

George MacDonald, The Seaboard Parish)

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Is there a way to get up out of the narrow canyon of our immediate historical situation and command a more sweeping view of the Pilgrim Path?  Has some genius been able to perfect a means of time-transport after all?

C. S. Lewis thought so.  But the contraption he had in mind didn’t consist of cranks, gears, tubes, diodes, or optical fibers, nor did it have anything to do with traversable wormholes.  It was a simple affair:  a thing made of ink and sheets of paper bound together between cloth-covered boards.  He was thinking of booksold books in particular.

“The only safety,” says Lewis in his essay On the Reading of Old Books, “is to have a standard of plain, central Christianity (‘mere Christianity,’ as Baxter called it) which puts the controversies of the moment in their proper perspective.  Such a standard can be acquired only from the old books.  It is a good rule, after reading a new book, never to allow yourself another new one till you have read an old one in between.  If that is too much for you, you should at least read one old one to every three new ones.”

Why tie ourselves down to such a troublesome and constrictive rule?  Simple:  it’s practically the only way to break free of a sweet, seductive, and subconscious slavery to the prejudices of the time in which we live.  As Lewis went on to say:

Every age has its own outlook.  It is specially good at seeing certain truths and specially liable to make certain mistakes.  We all, therefore, need the books that will correct the characteristic mistakes of our own period … None of us can fully escape this blindness, but we shall certainly increase it, and weaken our guard against it, if we read only modern books.  Where they are true they will give us truths which we half knew already.  Where they are false they will aggravate the error with which we are already dangerously ill.  The only palliative is to keep the clean sea breeze of the centuries blowing through our minds, and this can be done only by reading old books.

To a significant degree, our investigation of the Pilgrim Path will be centered around things found in old books.  “Old” is, of course, a relative term.  If you use the phrase “back in the day” to refer to events five years past, you may think an “old” book is one published prior to 1990.  We will almost certainly be referring to some of these more recent examples of “ancient” literature in coming installments:  to Lewis, for example, and Ellul, and authors such as G. K. Chesterton, A. W. Tozer, Simone Weil, Malcolm Muggeridge, Brennan Manning, and Henri Nouwen.

On other occasions, however, we’ll reach much further back:  to Tolstoy and Dostoevsky, for instance, or to Pascal, George MacDonald, William Blake, Henry Vaughan, John Owen, the Venerable Bede, and old John Bunyan himself.  Sometimes we’ll appeal to writers even more antiquated than that, like the prophets and apostles and early church fathers.  There’s no telling how far we may go in our attempts to escape the numbing haze of contemporary thought.

Our goal in so doing will be to get at the heart of the most basic Christian values.  Some of these values will bear familiar names:  faith and love, hope and vision, meekness and beauty and perspective.  Others, like autarkeia and apatheia, have a more foreign ring about them.  Still others may shock and dismay – anarchy, for instance, and weakness, and death.  But they all have one thing in common:  when boiled down to essentials, they stand diametrically opposed to the assumptions and values of the kosmos.

Sound intriguing?  Then stay tuned …

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The Sword of Paracelsus: Access Denied, Part 2

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Kneeling, he laid his bundle on the sandy cavern floor.  Slowly, almost reverentially, he began to unwind the folds of blue flannel.  A glint of gold gleamed forth from beneath the soft layers of fabric as he pulled them aside.  Then, with something approaching tenderness, he drew the shining object from its humble shroud and held it up to the light.

It was a sword.  A long blue sword with a large gilded pommel and an ornate, deeply curved crossguard.  For a moment he stood regarding it with a steady eye.  He turned it over and over, studying it intently, a warm glow of excitement and hope rising in the pit of his stomach.  If Eny had been present, she would have seen a slow, satisfied smile tugging at the corners of his mouth.

He knew it was no ordinary sword.  Not in the least ordinary, though he had found it in the commonest, obscurest spot imaginable—the umbrella rack behind the door of Madame Medea’s shop.  At just the right moment it had offered itself to him on that night of nights when the dark-haired woman, her green-eyes blazing, stunned him with those knife-edged words:  Do not prove as useless as your father!

No one else seemed to know the sword was there—not even Madame Medea herself.  And that was odd, for somehow Morgan had sensed in an instant that he’d made the discovery of a lifetime.  In that moment his heart had told him that this sword would alter his fortunes in ways he couldn’t foresee.  And this hunch had been confirmed almost immediately when he saw her lumbering henchman cower and flinch before the glittering blade.

From the alchemy shop he had carried it out into the storm, where it flashed in the night with a light of its own.  With a grim smile Morgan replayed the scene in his mind.  Once again in his imagination he looked upon the astonished faces of Baxter Knowles and his gang as they watched the sword carve the darkness in a wide electric blue arc.  He laughed, and the cavern walls rang softly, as he pictured the bullies turning and high-tailing it through the slanting rain.

No.  It was no ordinary sword.  If ever there was an object belonging to Eny’s Other World—as native to that world as the Stone of Destiny itself—it had to be this remarkable sword.  That’s why he’d been holding on to it all this time.  That’s why he’d kept it secret and hidden from prying eyes.  That’s why, after much deliberation, he had carried it over the rocky trails of La Punta Lira, down through the stone archway at the head of the Laguna, and up the pebbly strand to the Cave of the Hands.

Gripping the hilt with both hands, he turned to face the two boulders at the rear of the chamber.

She knows something about my father.  After everything that had happened, Morgan was more determined than ever to find the man who had vanished from his life while he was still a toddler.  And he was convinced that the green-eyed woman could show him the way.

Straining his powers of vision as if by sheer effort he could pierce the barrier of solid rock behind the two round stones, he planted his feet firmly in the sand and raised the sword above his head.  Then he closed his eyes and whispered words into the silent darkness.

“I have seen this sword do wonders,”he said.  “I know it can do wonders again.  Reveal to me now the way to Eny’s Sidhe!”

He opened his eyes.  The sword gleamed dully in the dim light.  Nothing had changed.

Remembering the Arabian Nights and the story of Ali Baba, he aimed its point directly at the space between the pair of boulders.  Then he spoke in a loud commanding voice:  “Open!”

Nothing happened.  He waited a minute more.  The back wall of the cave was as solid and gray as ever.  Not a crack or a gap to be seen.  No gateway opening onto a tunnel of light.

Morgan’s heart fell.  Seizing a lock of his own yellow hair, he pulled it hard and kicked a pebble from one side of the cave to the other.  He threw himself against the cavern wall and beat it with his fist.

And then, in that dismal moment, he suddenly recalled everything his mother had told him about the power of prayer and faith.  Brightening, he bent down on one knee, stuck the sword point into the sand, and bowed his head upon the hilt as if it were a cross.

“I believe!” he said earnestly.  “I believe this sword belongs to the Other World!  I believe I have found the key that will open the door!  Answer my prayer!  Take me there now!  Show me where I can find my dad!”

Nothing but the sound of water dripping in the silence.

Slowly Morgan got to his feet.  His heart was pounding.  His hands shook.  His eyes were dim.  Sweat dripped from his brow and he seemed to see a cloud of red haze shimmering in the air before him.

All at once he lunged forward, straight at the place where the boulders stood at the foot of the sloping wall.  With a cry he flung up the sword.  With another he brought it crashing down upon the nearest of the two rocks.  Up flew the blue sparks.  Backwards rebounded the ringing blade, stinging the palms of his hands like fire.  So furious was the assault that he was hurled to the floor by the recoiling force of the blow.  For a moment he lay there, still as death, listening to the silvery reverberations echoing off the walls and fading away into the deeper recesses of the grotto.

Then he rolled over onto his stomach and buried his face in the crook of his arm.

 

The Sword of Paracelsus: Access Denied, Part 1

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September.

To anybody of an even slightly imaginative or otherworldly bent, perhaps the least enchanting, least picturesque time of the year in Santa Piedra.

September in Santa Piedra is intensely normal.  Everything is out in the open.  The light is clear.  The air is free of swirling mists.  The sun shines bravely from morning till night, its yellow beams splintering off the great Rock and sparkling over the wave-tips of the Inlet.  The shops along Front Street stand neatly in a row, brightly colored, sharply outlined, undeniably real in the afternoon glare.  The sky is blue, the beach is white, the cliffside caves lie open to the probing fingers of the sunlight.  Gone are the shadows and secrets that lurked beneath the fogs of spring and summer.

Morgan felt all of this keenly as he came slogging through the shallow surf at the foot of La Punta Lira, a long blue bundle tucked tightly under his right arm.  Somehow he knew—he could smell it in the air and taste it on his tongue—that the magic of May and June had departed with the mists.  He had no idea how to get it back, and he wasn’t sure he could make his plan work without it.  But he was convinced he had to try.

Pausing in the ankle-deep water, he shoved a strand of straw-colored hair out of his eyes and squinted up at the black hole gaping down at him from the base of the cliff.  He could feel his heart thumping beneath his ribs.  He could taste the salt of his own sweat mingling with the salt of the damp sea air.  Rubbing his nose with a briny knuckle, he glanced back through the slanting sunlight at the amber glow lying upon the town on the far side of the bay.  Then, tightening his grip on the blue bundle, he marched up over the strand, his red tennis shoes squelching with sea water as he went.

She knows something about my father, he said to himself as the pebbles crunched noisily beneath his feet.  ‘He was taken.’  And she knows where.

Morgan, of course, had never been of a particularly otherworldly turn of mind.  For him, September had always been a season of discontent chiefly because school was in session again.  School still played a big part in the shaping of his mood.  But in another way things were different this year.  This year he was looking at his situation from an altered point of view.  It’s hard not to be otherworldly when you’ve had a glimpse of another world.

Trudging up to the mouth of the cave, he stooped down and peered inside.  Yes.  This was the place.  La Cueva de los Manos, the Cave of the Hands—his best friend Eny’s secret retreat, her private “laughing place,” her home away from home.  He knew it by the ancient painting on the inner wall, the work of artists who had plied their trade four thousand years before his time:  a cloud of ruddy hand-prints pressed upon the dark gray stone in rust-red ochre—hundreds of human hands reaching towards the cavern ceiling with long, thin fingers like tongues of living flame.

Eny had actually been to that other world.  By her own account, she had entered it through an opening at the back side of this very cave.  Descending through tendrils and coils of light—or so the story went—she had found her way into a marvelous land under the ground where she had lived with dwarves, encountered giants, sojourned among fairy folk, and fled from a dark enchantress.

As for Morgan, he believed it.  Practical and worldly as he was, he could no longer doubt that what she said was true.  He had, after all, seen the giants himself.  Quite apart from his own plans and purposes, he had been caught up in a whirlwind of enchantments and paranormal adventures.  He, too, had played a role in the unfolding of uncanny events.  And so, for him, blind unbelief was not an option.

Standing there at the mouth the cave, he cast his mind back over the things he had witnessed in the time of the summer mists.  Angels on the stairway and flying ships in the air.  The catastrophic battle for Lia Fail, the fabled Stone of Destiny.  The fall of the tower of St. Halistan’s church.  The seizure and abduction of the Stone.  Morgan knew that the strange woman who called herself Madame Medea had taken it.  He knew that she had fled with it into the depths of that other world, a place Eny called the Sidhe.  It was to find a way into that world and to hunt down that inscrutable woman that he had come to this hole in the cliff at the edge of the western sea.  This, he believed, was his destiny.  And he was determined to fulfill it.

She knows something about my father, he muttered again as he ducked inside the cave and stood on the threshold, waiting for his eyes to adjust to the light.  When he could see clearly, he cast his gaze from one side of the chamber to the other, carefully scanning the cavern walls.  No opening was discernible.

Hoisting up his bundle, he stepped to the face of the rock and pressed his fingertips against the fingers of the painted hands.  The moment he touched them he felt a tingle like an electric charge run up his spine.  The hair stood up on the back of his neck.  Now we’re getting somewhere! he thought.  

Without breaking the connection between his skin and the cool, damp surface of the rock, he followed the wall back into the furthest corner of the cavern.  At length he came to a place where the dripping ceiling sloped down to meet the floor in a hollow space behind two squat boulders.  A spark of recognition flashed through his brain.

Yes, he thought, recounting the details of Eny’s narrative for the hundredth time.  This has to be the spot where she found the tunnel of light.  It fits the description exactly!  But whatever Eny’s experience may have been on that spring day so long ago, he could discover no trace of any such passage now.

Slumping against the wall, he passed a weary hand over his forehead.  If only Eny were here now!  She could explain the next step.  He was sure she would be able to show him the way.  But Eny, too, was gone.  Gone with the enchantment.  Gone with Lia Fail.  Gone with the ever-elusive mystery of summer’s shrouding fogs.

Well, then.  He’d just have to try another tack.  He certainly wasn’t going to give up now.  This dead-end was not going to stop him—not if he had anything to say about it.  Experience had taught him better.  That’s why, keenly mindful of the many times his hopes and dreams had fallen flat, he’d come armed with a backup strategy.  He had one more trick up his sleeve, a plan he’d been revolving in his mind all summer long.  He’d thought about it long and hard, but it had taken him until now to drum up the courage to put it to the test.

(To be continued…)

 

The Sword of Paracelsus: First Journal Entry

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Day 30

 

Thirty white lines scrawled on the black and dripping wall.  Thirty days and counting.  So long, by my reckoning (and without these scratches I would long ago have lost all track of time) have I languished in this watery tomb.

 Thirty times through the orbed splendor of the rolling astrum has the sun, unseen by me, pursued his endless journey, a perpetual fixity in perpetual motion.  Even now, I suppose, he must be shining in the glad Somewhere beyond both Underworld and Overworld, riding high above the impenetrable heap of rock over my head. 

It must be so.  But what does it matter?  I mark the passage of time by the renewal of my bread and water alone.  Neither cloud nor sky, moon nor star can pierce the dimness of my dungeon.  Thirty days have I lain hidden from the light of the outside world.      

I knew it would go hard with me when I refused her demands.  I had no idea how hard.  I never imagined how far she would go to wring the secret from me.  Perhaps things would have gone differently if I’d taken a different tack.  Perhaps. 

Even now the memory of that last night looms before me.  I see myself standing at the window.  I watch the white hand of mist overspread the moony sky.  I remember how it shaded from gray to black as it blotted out the stars and burst into my study.

When next I knew anything at all, I was lying in this pit, calling upon my wife and child.  They did not answer.  For days my only comfort lay in summoning up the image of their faces.  Now I can no longer bring it to mind.                 

As I write, there is a scrabbling behind the damp wall-stones in the corner.  Something vile scuttles across the grimy, stinking floor.  The tin plate rattles at my side.  The Something makes off with the last of my daily ration—a moldy biscuit and a rancid bacon rind.  I shrug my shoulders and curse the darkness.  What more can I do?  My tears were all cried out long ago.        

Maria Prophetissa!  That’s what she called herself in the beginning.  I told her how my investigations into the meanings of words had led me into a quest for all knowledge.  She said I could achieve nothing until I grasped the inner essences and properties of things.  She assured me that once I had gained such knowledge—which she alone could give—I would be a true artist, a full-fledged mage.  I believed her. 

Besides the vermin, hunger is my only companion.  It gnaws my belly even as the rats gnaw my food.  I am shattered like a broken reed.  I am pressed down and poured out like water.  The deeps surround me.  My head is wrapped in sorrows.  It is she who has reduced me to this state.   

Maria Prophetissa.  Of course it was a lie.  By the time I realized it, I had gone too far.  And yet, here in the darkness, I begin to see that I have not lost quite everything.  In this black hole I have been granted at least one small glimmer of light.  I know now that the promises I swallowed were hollow and vain.  And that in itself is something.  That in itself is a morsel of bitter but incontestable truth.   

Here in this prison, where the sun never shines, I have come at last to know her as she is.  I have found her out.  I have discovered her true name. 

It is not Maria Prophetissa.  Neither is it Medea. 

It is Anand.  It is Raven.  It is the Daughter of Ernmas.

It is Morrigu.    

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A Place to Stand

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Then Moses went up from the plains of Moab to Mount Nebo, to the top of Pisgah, which is across from Jericho. And the Lord showed him all the land of Gilead as far as Dan, all Naphtali and the land of Ephraim and Manasseh, all the land of Judah as far as the Western Sea, the South, and the plain of the Valley of Jericho, the city of palm trees, as far as Zoar.

                        (Deuteronomy 34:1, 2)

    

                    … Now look down

                      and see how far the heavens have revolved.

 (Dante, Paradiso, Canto XXVII, ll.77-78; tr.   John Ciardi)

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How do we get back on the Pilgrim Path? That’s the million dollar question. Unfortunately, it’s not the kind of question that allows for simple, easy answers; and to complicate matters even further, it’s entirely possible that the solution may turn out to be one thing for you and something else entirely for me.

Let’s not become discouraged on that account. After all, “difficult” isn’t the same thing as “impossible.” A complex problem isn’t for that reason an insoluble problem. At the very least we can draw up a plan and give it an earnest try.

In the “Pilgrim Path” entries that follow we will attempt, through a series of reflections on the hidden values of a “peregrinatory” life, to re-capture that elusive Something that Jacques Ellul, out of sheer aversion to the word “Christianity,” preferred to designate as “X”. We will experiment with a method of sloughing off the accretions of culture and the troublesome baggage of the past. We will make it our aim to lay hold of the sweet kernel that lies sleeping within the time-hardened husk. By these means we will seek to uncover anew the essence of Christ-following in its original, unadulterated, unsubverted form.

Our task will be to explore what it means To Be A Pilgrim: to follow the Master faithfully and single-mindedly, to live and work and make a positive contribution not by grasping for power or asserting ownership and control, but by “passing through” the world as humble, unassuming, service-minded strangers and sojourners.

To do this we need perspective – a place to stand somewhere outside of and away from everything we normally take for granted. To see clearly, to attain a bird’s-eye view, to gaze abroad without restraint, we have to get out of the narrow ghetto of our own “contemporary” world. At least for the moment, we must attempt to forget “what’s happening now” and breathe a different atmosphere.

The goal is to see ourselves, the human community, the world, and God Himself through different eyes: the eyes of people whose assumptions, presumptions, and entire frame of reference are not only distinct from but even foreign to our own. This is the splash of cold water in the face that’s so desperately required today. After all, if you can’t see the forest for the trees, there’s only one thing to do: get out of the forest.

But how? That’s the practical problem.

Some manage to get the job done by traveling widely, living abroad, and developing a truly “multicultural” outlook. They deserve our admiration and respect. The difficulty, of course, is that this option isn’t open to everybody. It may be attainable only by a favored few.

The other alternative is to take a trip of a different kind and spend some time rubbing elbows with the denizens of the past. But here we come up against an even more formidable obstacle. Mr. H. G. Wells to the contrary, nobody has yet found a way to build a working Time Machine.

Or have they?

Prosperous Puritans

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         I am well aware that the Church must inevitably be a social structure, otherwise it would not exist.  But in so far as it is a social structure, it belongs to the Prince of this world …

Simone Weil, Waiting For God, Letter II

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In the western world, it has become all too easy to profess loyalty to an organization called the Church and subscribe to a doctrinal system labeled Christianity while simultaneously living by a set of assumptions directly opposed to the values of the Pilgrim life.  Not only is this possible:  on the whole, it has been the story of the Church as an institution for the past twenty centuries.  And the Church has followed this course most readily whenever Christians have found themselves in a position of prosperity, ease, alliance, and comfortable affiliation with the surrounding culture and the powers that be.

Puritan preacher John Owen saw it happen in 17th century England.  Prior to the English Civil War, the Puritans had been an ostracized and persecuted minority.  Following that conflict, they experienced a dramatic reversal of fortune.  With the overthrow of Charles I, they became the Ruling Party.  They dominated Parliament and controlled the British government under the leadership of Oliver Cromwell.  Naturally, this was a good thing for their pocketbooks, their public policy agenda, and their temporal securities.  Economically, materially, and politically they were sitting on top of the world.  But Owen understood all too well what they had lost:

“He that should see the prevailing party of these nations, many of those in rule, power, favour, with all their adherents, and remember that they were a colony of Puritans,—whose habitation was “in a low place,” as the prophet speaks of the city of God,—translated by a high hand to the mountains they now possess, cannot but wonder how soon they have forgot the customs, manners, ways, of their own old people, and are cast into the mould of them that went before them in the places whereunto they are translated.” 

(Of Temptation, Chapter III)

“Prosperity,” concluded Owen, “hath slain the foolish and wounded the wise.”  The Church of his day had taken the bait.  It had exchanged the values of the Pilgrim Path for the glitter of dominion and success.

We are now grappling with a similar temptation.  For hundreds of years the Christian community in the west – a community that began two millennia ago as a band of unpropertied sojourners and transients – has maintained strong vested interests in the structures of the kosmos.  Today those interests appear to be slipping from our grasp.  With each successive court battle, with each new piece of legislation, our hold upon the centers of influence seems to be waning.  And as our mastery over the system declines and a sense of panic sets in, the impulse to seize the reins – to “reclaim our rights” and “take back the culture” – becomes increasingly urgent.  In many instances it eclipses every other concern.  We have forgotten what it means to live in the world as a colony of disinterested Pilgrims.

Somehow or other, we’ve got to get back on the right road.